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Sep. 4th, 2006 10:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
antpowerAs you all know, I'm very sick. I've got this debilitating illness that makes it hard for me to get out of bed, let alone do anything once I'm out of bed.
I was thinking about just deleting my LJ completely, but there are some comms I really like reading and I don't want to lose my old entries and whatnot, plus I'm paid up for another year or so, so that just seemed like a stupid idea.
So instead I've basically deleted nearly all my flist. Don't be offended if I've defriended you (ooh, rhymey!), it doesn't mean anything except that you're not a comm or someone I speak to on a regular basis, or whatever. I'm not going to start flocking posts or anything, so feel free to keep me friended and commenting and whatnot (or not, either way is good). But it doesn't mean that I don't like you or that I don't enjoy reading your journal. It just means that I am too sick to do much of anything at the moment. Which is arse, any way you look at it.
It just doesn't seem fair to have ppl on my flist when I am not able to read their journals and so forth.
Anyways, my sausages are burning so I have to go.
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I was thinking about just deleting my LJ completely, but there are some comms I really like reading and I don't want to lose my old entries and whatnot, plus I'm paid up for another year or so, so that just seemed like a stupid idea.
So instead I've basically deleted nearly all my flist. Don't be offended if I've defriended you (ooh, rhymey!), it doesn't mean anything except that you're not a comm or someone I speak to on a regular basis, or whatever. I'm not going to start flocking posts or anything, so feel free to keep me friended and commenting and whatnot (or not, either way is good). But it doesn't mean that I don't like you or that I don't enjoy reading your journal. It just means that I am too sick to do much of anything at the moment. Which is arse, any way you look at it.
It just doesn't seem fair to have ppl on my flist when I am not able to read their journals and so forth.
Anyways, my sausages are burning so I have to go.
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Date: 2006-09-04 12:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-04 12:34 pm (UTC)No, it's actually something I've been thinking about for a long time. Is that okay with you?
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Date: 2006-09-04 12:44 pm (UTC)I shall, however, miss your little tardis usericons. *waves hanky at them*
And I hope you feel better soon, yo.
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Date: 2006-09-04 12:49 pm (UTC)I shall visit you sometimes with my mini!tardises!!
*hugs*
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Date: 2006-09-04 02:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-04 02:15 pm (UTC)I'm glad you kept me.
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Date: 2006-09-04 02:17 pm (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2006-09-04 02:18 pm (UTC)I'm glad I did too!
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Date: 2006-09-04 02:30 pm (UTC)Anyway, I hope you are feeling better soon. How chronic IS chronic fatigue syndrome? Is it something that will eventually go away?
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Date: 2006-09-04 03:49 pm (UTC)And I am glad you would keep me too! *huggles*
Chronic Fatigue is pretty chronic. About 5-10% of people get over it completely and a lot of people have sort of remission times where they're better but then they relapse.
I have good days and bad. On bad days, like yesterday, I can only be awake for about 4 hours and during that time I'm fairly woozy and can't really do anything. You also get flu symptoms like aches and pains and a sore throat and cough.
On good days I can do little things, like go to the movies or do my supermarket shopping, but if I do too much then I am really ill for the next week. Sometimes even being on the computer for too long makes me ill. It's not the being ill part that's so bad as the frustration of it all. It's starting to make my head explode, being so useless all the time!!!
*huggles*
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Date: 2006-09-04 05:00 pm (UTC)Also, score! I feel like all the planets that weren't Pluto a week or so ago.
I guess that since you kept me it means you like reading my journal (or just that I'm awesome), so I must apologise on the posting front. It's been a little thin lately, but I'm back at school on Wednesday, which means I'll need to update rather than doing homework, so normal service will resume!
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Date: 2006-09-04 05:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-04 05:03 pm (UTC)Regina Spektor - Samson (http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&ufid=E2B646665E65472C)
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Date: 2006-09-04 05:18 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2006-09-04 06:47 pm (UTC)I really hope so too.
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Date: 2006-09-04 06:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-04 06:50 pm (UTC)*shrugs* If you want to take it personally, go ahead, but it's not actually about you at all.
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Date: 2006-09-04 07:34 pm (UTC)*loves* You always give me the very best songs of all!!
*squishes*
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Date: 2006-09-04 07:34 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-04 07:48 pm (UTC)I know we never talk, because I am le lady who lurks (almost alliteration ... and again! XD), but I just thought that I should show my nose. I'm pobabally one of the ones who you didn't know who they were (and lordy, can I not spell today) but I send chocolate biscuits and !Ten pictures over the internets to you.
Obviously no hard feelings here. Hope that you have more good days than bad days, and eventually no bad days at all.
Don't let the sausages burn! That would be a tragedy indeed. (Although, actually, I prefer burnt sausages.)
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Date: 2006-09-04 08:07 pm (UTC)The sausages didn't burn! I forgot that I'd set the timer, so it had turned off by the time I got to the kitchen, which was lucky. I like burnt sausages to a certain degree, but they have to be edible!!!
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Date: 2006-09-04 08:13 pm (UTC)I don't see why people should be iffy about it. It's not like it's really "defriending", after all - you're not saying that you don't like them and nevah evah want to talk to them again!
Hurray for edible sausages. ^^
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Date: 2006-09-04 09:44 pm (UTC)I know it was hard for you to do this. But I also know how hard it has been for you to function lately. I hope everyone will take this in the spirit it is intended and not get upset. Because, really, you've had such a hard time coping with things and everyone should know that you wouldn't do this in a fit of pique or something.
*carries on loving and all that*
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Date: 2006-09-05 07:29 am (UTC)(If that fucking mosquito advert comes up, I'm sorry. That bastard advert has been pissing me off all week)
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Date: 2006-09-05 08:16 am (UTC)I had my sausages with mashed potato and baked beans and it was a grand meal indeed!!!
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Date: 2006-09-05 08:18 am (UTC)If people are bothered about it then clearly they're not the sort of people I want on my flist anyway, so it works out really.
Though, it is kind of sad when you're too sick to even bum around on the internets!!!
whispers: I am sick like Archie in my icon!!!
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Date: 2006-09-05 08:19 am (UTC)I wonder if I would get better if I had Horatio to spoon-feed me??? This is worth looking into!
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Date: 2006-09-05 08:37 am (UTC)*LOVES ON YOU*
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Date: 2006-09-05 10:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-05 02:28 pm (UTC)Also - really, who could honestly say that they don't want to marry him??
Oooh, you're making me hungry now which is not. fair. XD
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Date: 2006-09-05 04:09 pm (UTC)Is it wrong that Archie was rather devastatingly adorable when he was all wan and icky?
Of course, he was so much more wonderful when he was bright eyed and bushy tailed.
Just what does that mean, anyway? What a weird saying. I've always thought so.
*whipsers* But no matter how lovely Archie or Horatio may be, Pellew will still make me go, "Guh..."
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Date: 2006-09-06 12:45 am (UTC)I think bright eyed and bushy tailed means you're all energetic and industrious like a squirrel.
It is good we like different boys. Well, men. You can have Pellew and I will have Archie, and because I am feeling charitable, let us give Horatio to Bryonia. We can dress him up and put ribbons on him.
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Date: 2006-09-06 12:54 am (UTC)*sigh*
Am I making you hungry for sausages and mash and beans, or hungry for David Tennant????
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Date: 2006-09-06 01:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-06 04:33 am (UTC)Could we get one to stay around his nose? And we could snitch all the buttons off his uniform and replace them with ribbon ties. Then, he is just like a present and all wrapped and everything. I think
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Date: 2006-09-06 04:45 am (UTC)(Except Archie in ribbons, of course.)
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Date: 2006-09-06 05:34 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2006-09-06 06:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-07 06:46 pm (UTC)I'm not going to lie and say your defriending me hasn't hurt me because I consider you an extremely good friend, even now though we rarely talk anymore. I suppose this good chance for me to actually say certain things I want to say to you but...haven't. Whenever I think of you I want to tell you...well, how much I still think of you, *grins*. But the last few times I talked to you I got the feeling you weren't really that interested in me anymore. Which isn't your fault and not something I blame you for, of course, because, I mean, it's just not your fault but it's stuff like this that I just take way too personally. But I mean, I always take things very personally and you have far larger issues than seeing to my happiness, haha.
Maybe the only reason I feel so bad about this is because we used to be amazing friends (at least I thought so) and there was so much we shared (my Harry to your Ron! OotF! Spam memes! IT! It was all great fun :>)...I always find it terribly hard letting go of things like this because I rarely make as good friends with people as I did with you. I know that defriending on LJ hardly means anything - it's really just a click of a button - but I'm stupidly sensitive about this stuff because of the fact that I'm a severely insecure person, heh.
Anyhow, this is really not your problem at all, but just something I needed/wanted to say to you. I love you always and hope you get lots and lots better because you deserve it as you are an absolutely fantastic person and you need to do whatever it is that will make you feel even the slightest bit better. I hope we cross paths somewhere in the future. (Wow, that sounds really dramatic. :| It's not meant to so imagine it surrounded with sparkly bits or something funny to make it lighter). :x
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Date: 2006-09-08 02:15 am (UTC)It doesn't mean anything at all! It's not as though I'm deleting you from my life. There is still Y!M, and I will still check your LJ from time to time to see what's going on with you. And hopefully one day when I'm feeling better I will refriend everyone back again.
It's certainly also not that I've been uninterested when we've chatted, it's just hard for me to seem enthusiastic about anything for more than just a *squee* and a YAYS here and there. I'm drugged up to my eyeballs most of the time, so I'm a bit vague about everything really!
And you know, I love you too!! *squishes*